i'm back...after more than a week...

so much had happened...

cant believe my granny's in hospital..lying in bed and needed an oxygen mask to breathe... what was so unbelievable was how it was only less than a week ago, she was happily talking to me at my couzzie's weddding....now she can hardly talk properly...its really breaking my heart...

the first night we went to visit her, i was trying so hard not to cry when i saw her..but ting had to break down in front of me and i broke down too...

but praise the Lord!! my mum actually told us to pray for my granny and even told my granny not to worry as we will pray for her to recover.... and today, she seemed much better... according to my sisters...on sunday when they visited her, she could even crack lame jokes...heh...i really hope she'll recover quickly...

but i was so damn fucking pissed today when i visited my granny...

i had had a long day at work...instead of knocking off at 5.30, i had to cover a 4.30-6.30 class...and imagine, i started work at 8am! imagine how shack i am?? and immediately ting i and rushed down to the hospital so that we can visit my granny for a little while today...

but when we reached, my uncle asked how come we so late. i snapped and told him we were working. then he replied and said he had to work too. den i snapped and said we worked at evans and its not exactly tt convenient. he replied that he too wrked at a not-so-convenient place. so out of exasperation, i told him we taking public transport, he told us he did too...and still, he could reach earlier.....what the fuck?????

look....after a long and tiring day, i definitely cannot tolerate such nonsense...furthermore, i came down not out of obligation but out of love for my granny....i put in the effort to come, so i'll not tolerate stupid comments like his.

sometimes i wonder why people say the things they say. what went thru their minds when they made those comments? does scorning others make them feel better abt themselves? why must there be insecure people making themselves feel more secure by saying things to put others down? are these hurtful actions fueled by the sense of competiveness in them? how they dun wanna feel that they are at the bottom of the pile??

which reminds me...

just yst...i met my sec sch best friend's mum at a coffeeshop...she's working there...i said hi... she didnt rmb who was i so i told her i'm her daughter's frm and i used to go to her hse...

she asked if i still kept in contact with her daughter...i said yes...then this conversation followed:

Her: oh. so did u know she changed job?

Me: yup. she was asking me to join her.

Her: ooh. yeah. good that she changed her job. she's a MANAGER now. (note.the capitalized words showed her increased tone while she spoke) and what are u doing now?
(my thinking process: i've did a management studies dip. and i couldnt be more qualified than my fren to be a manager too. but i'm not one though. too bad)

Me: oh. i'm a teacher.

Her: teaching kids?

Me: yeah.

Her: oic. well i'm busy now. cant tok. do drop by my hse more often. but my daughter might be busy.

Me: ok. cya!

phew. if i were not a christian, i would have been totally pissed off. but i learnt the virtue of humility. do note. humility doesnt mean putting ourselves down when talking abt ourselves. many has that misconception. it simply means not to keep bragging abt ourselves. its fine to tell others abt our strength. just dun say it because we wanna brag. say it as an informative comment. sorry for the sidetrack.

well. yeah. because i learnt the virtue of humility, when she bragged abt my fren, i didnt impulsively add in that i could easily get a job with salary that's 1-2k more than her daughter. i didnt. cuz i know tt its nothing degrading abt being a teacher. and i'm a julia gabriel teacher anyway. heh. all i know is i love my job and i am experiencing high job satisfaction and a relatively good paying job. i doubt my fren is feeling as happy as me. bleag.

who wun want a good paying job? i would oso wanna complete my econs and finance degree and go into morgan stanley to wrk as a trader. starting pay? 7.5k...thats how good paying it is.

heh...

and i'm so happy!! thanks to chuan, i finally got to buy the Polo Ralph Lauren shirt tt i had been wanting to get!! hee...nxt up on my list, a new LV wallet.... heez!!