right now i'm at my fren's hse. so coincidentally, he was actually staying at exactly the same blk as martin! haha. i had always known that he stayed at the same condo as martin but i was really surprised that it had been the same blk. haha. seem like the world is really really small after all. sometimes i did wonder if he'll happen to be staying at the same blk and thus wen i bwas at martin's hse i would wonder wat are the chances i would bump into edmond. haha. but of course, all this are rather irrelevant. ha!

but well, having met up with some of my sjab frens after abt a year, brought back much happy memories. seeing how much everyone had grown up, some changed in the way they looked, some loved clubbign as much as i did, some seemingly staying the same as they had been.... regardless of it all...it had been extremely heartwarming to have met up with them again... those times we went through while we were in sec sch would be in heart and memories forever... those had been the good and wonderful times....it still is right now.... so much jokes and laughters...

it made me realized that maybe certain things hadnt changed much....the matters of the heart among some people...i dunno...maybe?

some emo music is playing right now...so i guess my entry is getting emo? or issit the chivas thats taking effect upon me? i've something in mind right now. i've some issues, which in my current mental state i wished i could comprehend and make up my mind abt. but i guess the lack of courage ultimately take precedence.

i hate thus feeling though. always wishing for something but knwing i might just not get it? life's always like that. i've gotta admit. i may know tt i've gotten wats the best but i still want more. the grass on the other side is ALWAYS greener. someone pls teach me not to be so greedy? sighz... when can i ever learn to be satisfied with wat i already possess?

when it comes to certain matters with regards to the heart...its really mind boggling...if only.....fantasies can turn out real one day...but when the fantasies are lived out, i'm sure i'll have more things i'm unsatisfied abt...

well cant blame me rite? all girls want to have their relationships like that of fairytales of some sort. though i may seem too old for fairytales...i still wished for it nevertheless.....reading too much romance stories? watching too much romance movies? i dunno....but i do wish my fairytale fantasies can come true...
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