Saw this short article on yahoo...rather interesting and applies to many...hahahahhahah..

Question: Why do I get so jealous when my partner talks to other people?
Answer: When you first connected with your partner and looked into their eyes, it felt like he or she was the only person in the room. As you get deeper into your relationship and call yourselves a couple, the realization hits you: You and your partner are not alone on this planet. There are others! Are they a threat?
When we are in a committed relationship, we assume the connection we have with each other will be strong enough to fend off outside threats. In some ways, this you-belong-to-me-and-I-belong-to-you mentality is sweet; it's the stuff of pop songs and poetry. But sometimes the intensity of that connection is too strong.
When one partner sees everyone whom his or her partner comes into contact with as a potential threat, it is
a sign that jealousy has taken hold. Shakespeare called it "the green-eyed monster," and once it gets a hold of your relationship, it sinks its teeth in and can rip it apart. What causes jealousy?
If you've got strong feelings of jealousy, it's probably a sign that you don't have enough trust in your partner that he or she is being faithful to you. That lack of trust may be prompted by one of four factors.
You may feel insecure about your self-worth. In these cases, either you've been raised to believe, or some part of your inner self feels, that you just don't measure up. Because you don't love yourself, you can't believe that others would love you, so you live in fear that your partner's "true" feelings will be revealed and she will leave.
You're prone to cheating on your partner -- maybe even have done so. Knowing what you're capable of, you project that behavior onto your partner.
You and your partner haven't yet figured out how to
establish safe boundaries within the relationship. Having a tight bond is about building walls around your love with windows that allow others to be part of it -- not doors where competing lovers can walk right in and disrupt your home. Because you don't know what's permissible within the relationship and what's not, you're constantly on your toes.
Your mate is cheating on you. Cheating doesn't have to include sex; it often has to do with making emotional connections to others outside the relationship. If your partner is sharing things about your private life with attractive members of the opposite sex, it robs a sense of intimacy from your relationship and leaves you feeling vulnerable.
Knowing the factors that lead to jealousy is an important first step to getting things fixed.
Put your focus on building trust. If you've got some growing up to do, therapy may help. Both of you have to learn how to set boundaries in the relationship. That requires respecting your mate's definition of limits of outside relationships from the start.
Over time, as trust builds, you and your partner can redefine what feels safe for the relationship. After all, when you've got a great relationship, you want to share it with the world.

oh.my.goodness.



so many events happened. i'm so eager to write everything down but have no idea how to start. ok. lets start with my exhilarating experience during church camp, where i spent 4D3N at KL Bejaya Times Square(YES! the one where it has a 7storey shopping center linked to it!)



mm..it was evening when we finally arrived at the hotel...as usual...chuiting and i were bunking together..so we excitedly checked out our room which is at the 41st level....whoa...esther and chuisan's room is at the 40th lvl...tts how high up we all are...



anyways...the lift is really troublesome...we need to insert our room card before we can press the buttons..and there's only like 10 secs for us to press the buttons after our cards are insrted..so those who entered the lift would quickly shout out their lvl and we'll have a bust time searching for the lvl no...why the rush? cuz when we pressed the levels, the lift will start moving..so in case one's lvl gets missed out, we need to make sure the lvls are indicated before we reach the lvl...cuz its extremely troublesome to wait for the lift to reach all the lvls then we can indicate those lvls tt were missed... enuf abt lifts...



our rooms are awesomely spacious...wilson and shawn was complaining why they paid more but seemed to get a smaller room then us...hahahahah....



throughout the camp, our days start at 7.30am!! the first day, chuiting, myself, esther, shawn and wilson decided to hit the gym at 7.30 before we go for our buffet breakfast(well actually all our meals there are buffet style...which explains our enthusiasm for gym)..



something horrible happened to chuiting....when she came down from the trackmill, she walked abt for a short while to cool down den she suddenly fainted...i was on the trackmill at tt time..just beginning to warm up on my jogging..when i saw her on the ground, she was trembling..i tot she was trying to get up..but when i realized she was not getting up at all, i screamed her name and jumped off the mill and ran towards her...it was really drama..but i was totally anxious and hysterical tt i dun care how stupid i'm making myself look... the first thing tt came to my mind when i saw her trembling, i tot she was caught by the machine or smth..so i quickly pulled her away(her head was resting on the pedal of the steps machine).. when i pulled her towards me, i realized she wasn't conscious at all...so i cuddled her and kept asking her to wake up...this is stupid of course...as a trained first aider, i should have kept my cool and help her relief her shock..but its my sister there..unconscious in my arms..i can't thnk..i kept shaking her(as told to me by esther cuz i didn't realize i was doing it)..

my screams attracted the attention of the gym instructors who were initially outside the gym as well as other gym users...i was trying to get someone to call for the ambulance..but i coulnd't get the words out... when chuiting finally came back to consciousness, the first qn she asked was,"what happened to me?" i was shocked..so i immediately asked if she was feeling uncomforatable anywhere...or where was she hurting...does her head hurt..etc etc... but she didn't answer me and insisted on standing up...so we helped her up...

as i made sure she was alright, i broke down into tears...cuz i was simply so scared abt the fact tt she displayed fits-like symptoms while she was unconscious....

but tt was the end of the whole drama...when she started asking if her face is alright, we knew she was fine alrdy....but since we're bunking, i told her i'm not allowing her to be alone even during bath time cuz i dun want her incident of "fits" to occur again and i dunno abt it...so i made sure the bath tub was dry so she wun slip, and the door kept ajar to allow me to listen out for anth unusual... i'm being overly paranoid...but i'm just too worried....

the rest of the days went by with no interesting episodes....and finally the night of our Holy Spirit night came...tt was the last night of the camp...it was awesome...God released peace to me when i went for the altar call to free me of disappointments....and when i received the oil annointing, the presence of God overcame me so quickly tt i fell over before anyone could catch me in time..but of course, there was no pain...

but all in all...it was indeed a refreshing time for me encountering God and renewing my passion for Him once again..i just pray tt this passion will not be a short term thing....

and when i was back in s'pore...i was pleasantly surprised with the number of msgs tt i received from friends, asking me out...since i have no rception while in m'sia, there could be a few msgs tt was overdued and i didn't get to see it or know abt it, until friends would call me to ask me again..heh...but yeah..its good to know i wasn't forgotten even though i didn't keep in touch with them for 4 days...

yst i went for cell grp meeting...had a great time of sharing and discussion with my fellow cell mates...most of whom i spent the last 4 days in church camp with.....the bonding we shared was so strong tt the sharings lasted till nearing to 11... and we went for supper... i had a good time playing with wilson's PSP...so kind of him to give it to me( with monetary conditions of course)...hhahahaha....

but yeah...i'm enjoying my PSP and looking forward to changing my hp soon!! gonna play my worms now..tata...

PS...Darling is booking out on 28June!! i can't wait...

ahahahahahaahah!!! i cleared ALL my exam papers!! can u sense my sense of relief and joy?!! hahahaha...vernon msged me to tell me he got all D's...aww....he kept saying i go Tioman can't do well is i deserve it...but y did he do worse than me? LOL...kidding la ah buddy....

now i can truely enjoy my church camp and spend quality time coming back to the presence and word of God and refreshing my walk with God...

anyways, its the second day of wen yang's enlistment...getting used to not having him ard slowly..but still trying hard to adapt...shouldn't have been so dependent on him in the past... went mambo with ting today...supposed to get 2 stamps from Gary...but yang called...so getting all excited, i left Mambo without my 2 precious stamps! nvm...hope Martin saw my nsg and rmbered to tell Gary...

mm.....had a great chatting session with an ex-classmate just now...it made me missed them even more...had invited him to read my blog so tt he can properly update himself abt my stuff...hahah...thanks Mark...for telling me so many things just now..and allowing me to confide in u a secret now known only to u, me and ahem him...

now now...since mark and dom wants to stay out of pubbing..mm....maybe we can go east coast?? i thnk the place is a great place to chat and have fun...i thnk those who know me...know i have 3 fave hangout place...east coast, mambo billiards and cafe cartel..hahahah....come to thnk of it...since i have some time left before my new sem starts, i should polish up my bearings and go roller blading at east coast...but sighz.... used to be yang drive us there..now gotta go there on my own on public transport..i might just lose my way...hate doing things alone....maybe tts the reason y God had blessed me with 2 triplets sisters...heez... love them more than anybody else...

yawnz....worked 9hours at Glory centre today...really shack...shall stop now then.....

haiz...on this night..just before the enlistment of my darling...i'm waiting aimlessly at home...not a single sms from him asking to meet or even chat... so i decided to upload some of my fave pics up... i nv really liked taking photos...not as much as ting...so i have nt much new stuff to put up...whats here can mostly be found in my friendster...

argh...so fed up right now...

i'm not tired
i'm not sleepy
i'm not in the least fatigue...

shit...i'm starting morning classes this upcoming semester yet i can't slp early...how to be punctual for class? anybody can teach me how to make myself sleep? i can't count sheep, i'll stay even more awake....i can't listen to my mp3 cuz sudden loud songs will seem to find their way to the next song on my playlist and jolt me awake just as i'm falling aslp.... -_-

like right now...i'm working at 7.15am and need to wake up at 6.30am..but i'm still not sleeping yet..ARGH..maybe its cuz thoughts are crowding my mind as usual and i can't find peace till i have it blogged out...

mm...wats bothering me now is wenyang's really-soon-upcoming enlistment...but i'm getting a lil bored writing abt it..haha...its just...well.....boring without him at my beck and call...HAHAHAHA... oops...he's gonna ask me wat tt means...how shall i tell him..hmms....

nth much happening recently...except for yesterday night...i'm sure those who read chuan's blog knows....for those who dun...let me relate this rather ridiculous snippet of conversation tt we heard when we were down at the yishun dam(aka lower seletar)

"wa lau...my keys flew off cuz i was riding too fast just now!!"... when yang, martin, hwee, chuan and i heard this, we looked at each other in bewilderment and amusement and burst out in loud laughter.... i mean, WTF?? hello...who doesnt know tt for a bike to run, u'll need to insert yer key into the ignition?? so how can one's bike cont running if one's keys are out??

somebody save me from laughing too much manz.... but of course....upon closer observation with my superb(coughs) skills, (coughs coughs)...i came to the conclusion(and told it to my fellow buddies) tt the keys seemed to be still in the ignition but the part tts sticking out, had most prob broke off, and thus, came to the result of it flying off....but pardon me...i must still ask... HOW IN THE WORLD CAN KEYS BREAK OFF SO EASILY?? this, i really do not know...

and then we started joking abt it...martin was exclaiming... "haha..yeah....i was driving at 170km/h just now and 2 of my wheels flew off and so i'm surviving on 2 wheels"..and chuan joked "yar...u initially had 3 exhaust tips too....but look, there's only 2 left!" lolx...thats how lame they can get...buay da han...hahaha

anyhows....feeling better tt i blogged....getting teeny weeny sleepy...jumping into the comfort of my bed now..................................

aw...having diarrhoea since 30th may and i'm still not fully recovered... but this time's diarrhoea so bad maybe cuz the exam stress had been super intense... haiz...maybe shawn and fay had been right...its stupid of me to go on a holiday to tioman on the 25th... even though classes ended on the 23rd, the rest of the days till our exams are meant to be our revision period...

but seriously...i had no idea the first paper was on the 29th may.. i figured that since we finish on the 23rd, the exams would start in the first week of june...but alas....looks like it aint true...

anyhow, everything's over...can only await for the 14th to come to know the outcome of my results....SIGHz...but thats also the day my darling would be enlisting...i've been dreading for the day to come way before he received his letter...but it is of course inevitable....looking on the brighter side, if i were to fail my OTQM and/or finance paper, i can concentrate on studying the whole day for my re-exam without thinking abt wat time i can meet him...its not that he's a distraction for my studies...its just tt i know i can go and have fun if i'm getting bored of studying...but then again, this shows tt he's my motivation to finish up my revision quickly...

time spent without my darling around would be something rather foreign and forlorn to me...i'll need some getting used to...not having the ability to call/sms him and expect a reply anytime i wanted, can't ask him if he's free to drive me someplace to buy things, can't ask him to go east coast skate with me, can't ask him to swim with me, can't ask him to have supper with me.....so many many many things i can't do with him for the next 2 years....sobz...also if my sisters and i want to play majong, we can't get him to be the fourth kaki le...

i no longer can call him and ask to meet him after my lessons ended! and i finishes at 12.30 for my 5th sem!! sobz sobz...i really can't get use to it la...

haiz...typing all these thoughts out is really making me cry..shant cont then..

i should start arranging meet-ups with my gal friends...they've been asking me out anyways..haha!

mm...well had been busy with my exam revision eversince i came back from Tioman...

actually we had loads of fun there..but not much really happened...as in, we were snorkelling and the experiences are rather unforgettable..

heh...there was once i was away from the guys and snorkelling by myself looking at the fishes and corals...den i bumped into Martin...he looked at me from under the water then suddenly pulled my hand and came up to the surface saying "Piranna Piranna!" den he let go of my hand and swam off.... when i saw his panic, i looked under the water...but i seriously dunno what a piranna looks like..i only know there's lots of fishes ard me...this got me scared..so i quickly swam away...trying to catch up with martin...den i saw yang swmming next to martin...both of them paddling their flippers damn fast... i got more and more scared by the moment...the more i tried to swim after them the harder it was for me.... cuz the water they kicked back, pushed me back.....hahah...its so tiring...

so i tried swimming to their side, but i was getting really tired and couldn't catch up....i was really wondering why martin never pull me away with him la....haiz.... but i checked with my classmates...pirannas are freshwater fishes...the ones martin saw is very likely the one tt looks super like a piranna but it aint one....they kept saying tt there is one fish tt really looks like a piranna...hahaha...if its true, then its "phew..."

yeah...den second night most of them drink till drunk....who wouldn't... we polished off 1 bottle Bombay, 1 bottle Vodlka and 1 bottle red wine....mixed red wine with bombay...finished everthing in less than 2 hours...its really strong manz....there were 8 of us...in the end end, only yang, dennis, wei ci, martin and i were the really sober ones...but its cuz yang vomitted and stopped drinking tts why he was able to recover....

but it was really fun..having the liberty to just play ard and relax...i wun know when i can get another chance to go overseas with a group of friends lor...nowadays, schedules are really hard to fixed...

ok...need to revise for my finance paper...ciao~